“…in bondage to the whole course of previous history” • (Tolstoy is difficult, but there’s a reason “War and Peace” is cited again and again with a reverence no other piece of literature even approaches: the experience of reading “War and Peace” is like introducing your soul to itself, and changes you forever)

Knowing Russian helps. I’ve heard. (Obviously.) В исторических событиях великие люди, так называемые, – это всего лишь ярлыки, которые служат для придания имени событию, и подобно ярлыкам, они имеют последнюю возможную связь с самим событием. Каждое их действие, которое кажется им актом их собственной свободной воли, является в историческом смысле вовсе не свободным, а в…

The umbilical cord story as screwed up to fictionalize

Silver Sunflowers and Buried Umbilical Cords; Ch. 1 “Your umbilical cord is buried in Albuquerque, New Mexico.”      My dead mother’s words echoed strangely through my bones and into my stomach, where they rattled around, reaching their sonar into my womb and whispering their strange chorus to the little girl growing there. Mom’s ghostly echo was…


Turn around. Retrace. Note the path before the breadcrumbs scatter. Then you can take down this idiotic note to yourself that you’ve put up in public because you know it is that important. “It’s a poor sort of memory that only works backward.” Lewis Carroll


Originally posted on serene:
“Sufficient unto the day is one baby. As long as you are in your right mind don’t you ever pray for twins. Twins amount to a permanent riot. And there ain’t any real difference between triplets and an insurrection.”     -Mark Twain ?

Four Notebooks

Four journals, moving from all mirror, to a cross-breed, to being able to finally force myself, at least most of the time, to write right.